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Sometimes I feel so selfish. There is a world out there that I could contribute to. I would hate to run out of time before doing anything that could make a positive difference in the world…

Yet, here I am. Trying not to sulk and wallow in a pile of crap that I’ve got myself into, while the entire internet responds to a cause that has exploded into the consciousness of a whole generation… 

And right now, I can’t do much to help. Yes, ok, I can share the cause with my friends and talk about it. But if I want to be able to pay my phone bill and keep in contact with my mum then I can’t buy anything to help… I can’t sign up to donate, I can’t really do anything… 

And then I start to question my desire to help, without having researched the organisation properly or truly looked into the work that they do. Some people have been writing up blog posts about the hypocracy of the charity and the limited amount of funds that actually end up helping those in need. Blindly Following?

But then I think again, and I think NO. THESE ARE JUST EXCUSES. This is a cause. An incredibly important cause. We are talking about a generation of children loosing their chance at life. Children forced to kill their parents so they are numb to the pain of murder, and others forced into sexual slavery. I know that the current video that has blown up on the interwaves is only one organisation, and that there are plenty more out there… but why not this one?

But, again… then I stop to think. And I think that if I can’t give them any of my money, (just so you know, in no way am I proud of the fact that apparently my priorities go phone, then kids in hell in africa - no way do I think that that is the right way round. But I suppose my justification for that is that it seems impossible to ‘do life’ in this ‘civilised’ world without a phone…), or give them any of my time, then aren’t I a hypocrite for even writing about this? 

And there we go - back to selfish. 

So, I go about my life. Going from uni to my house and back again. Watching films, tv and youtube in my spare time. Hanging out with friends, trying not to fall in love, making a drunken idiot of myself, and caring far too much about what the set of people I know in my life right now think of me… selfish. 

I hope that this will change. 

It is important for everyone to try to make a difference.. ‘be the change you want to see in the world’… isn’t that the phrase? 

One of my best friends, Ana is possibly one of the best people I know. She inspires me to be good, better, and a harder worker every day I see her… The last place I heard that phrase was from her… 

My Baby Sister is another of the best people. Very wise and very caring. One of the most beautiful people I know. She has done what she can, only a very little, £10, but its a start… She too, is one of my biggest inspirations…

The last few weeks I have been in a whirlwind. Getting caught up in a life I don’t want, having experiences I never expected, and others that I would never imagine myself in. Being confused, excited, scared, like a 5 year old with a new scooter, flitting between the situations I wanted, and those I never thought I would be in… Like living two wholly different lives at the same time. I need to re-prioritise. Get out of the spaces I have hardly left. Make some changes in my life, so that I can be better - be the person I want to be, and start to make some sort of a difference. 

But, for now, I will put on Pride and Prejudice. And say one final thing…

KONY 2012 

If you haven’t yet seen it, then I ask you to search it in youtube now. Take a half hour and sit down and watch it. If you do nothing else, then watch it, listen, think… ponder it for a while… I’m not asking you to buy anything, I’m not telling anyone what they have to think or do, if I did that then I would be a terrible hypocrite, but for yourself - ponder. 

Share it, tweet it, comment on it, or not… do whatever you want to do… but do one thing - remember the name KONY. We are all going to need to know that name and what he does. I think it is true; that if war criminals and people like Kony are made as famous as George Clooney, then they can’t hide forever. 

So I shall sign off now. 

Goodnight. 

God bless, Sleep tight x